I am truely sorry you have been, or are, suffering.
I would email you but since you have no contact information on your profile I will just say I strongly urge you to seek medical advice, and maybe seek out a pastor at a mainstream church to discuss your situation.
I knew someone who nearly died and who held very similar non-mainstream medical and non-mainstream religious beliefs.
When they were in so much pain they couldn’t even stand up they finally agreed to be taken to a hospital where they lay on the floor of the emergency department. It turns out they had a near fatal infection in the spine, which was easily cured by antibiotics (after months of agony) and the suffering reduced by painkillers.
It’s a matter of personal belief but I don’t think there is any higher purpose to real suffering (suffering caused by illness or by other people).
I also don’t believe that you stand to lose or compromise your faith in any way by accepting medical treatment.
Yes, well, some of my "non-mainstream beliefs" included:
1. AStonesThrow has a right to be healthy, a right to time-tested and clinically-proven medical cures and healing, and a right to be fully informed when a treatment may in fact damage health, decrease functioning, or hasten death.
2. Doctors can dispense practical advice and order patients' good habits. Such as: "Rest awhile in bed for a few days. Your legs hurt because you walk around too much." "Take some time off work, because your flu/cold may be infectious or you're burned out." "Here's a common-sense organic diet that is tailored for you and will improve your health." 2a. That doctors would write down what they said verbally to me in the sacrosanct privacy of the exam room, so that I could understand and remember what they ordered/recommended, or, y'know, show it to my employer.
3. Doctors, clinics, hospitals serve the patients as customers, and every medical decision is made to prioritize the individual's good health and longevity.
4. Physicians are Biological Tech Support for the body. File a bug report, educate myself on biomedicine, document my findings, help him troubleshoot, and he will fix me up as good as new
5. Doctors (MD/DO) understand supplements and nutrition, and so if I regularly inform them with a complete list of self-treatments, they will take into account their effects on my system and adjust care accordingly. 5a. That supplements and alternative medical practice is somehow superior or preferrable over commonplace Western Medicine for people like AStonesThrow
6. Medical care is essentially free of cost and it's no problem to go make an appointment whenever I have an ouchie or boo-boo so a Candy-Striped Jasmine-Lavender-scented Nurse can Kiss it all Better and Reward me wif a Lolly-Pop from Pirate Treasure Chest.
All these faulty core beliefs conspired to give me a whoppin' case of Somatic Symptom Disorder, which still isn't notated in my charts or records, for some reason, and a visceral rage against the medical machine, and basically at this point I'm going reactionary and overcompensating.
I also recognize that for people whose Social Credit is nil or negative, we're not worth healing, rehabilitating, or putting back in the workforce, and the Good of the Many outweighs the needs of a few.
Dying is, by far, not the worst thing that can happen to a man. We all suffer in some way to some magnitude. In my firmly held traditional beliefs. Thank you for your public demonstration of concern.
I am probably missing some cultural subtext and I am unsure which parts of your reply were sincere and how much was sarcasm, so it is difficult to write a reply on such a sensitive subject.
I do agree with you that is is awful when the medical profession decide that a patient is too hard a problem or they lump them into some category which means 'no idea but maybe the patient is at fault' rather than admitting they simply don't have an answer or the time to find an answer.
I would email you but since you have no contact information on your profile I will just say I strongly urge you to seek medical advice, and maybe seek out a pastor at a mainstream church to discuss your situation.
I knew someone who nearly died and who held very similar non-mainstream medical and non-mainstream religious beliefs.
When they were in so much pain they couldn’t even stand up they finally agreed to be taken to a hospital where they lay on the floor of the emergency department. It turns out they had a near fatal infection in the spine, which was easily cured by antibiotics (after months of agony) and the suffering reduced by painkillers.
It’s a matter of personal belief but I don’t think there is any higher purpose to real suffering (suffering caused by illness or by other people).
I also don’t believe that you stand to lose or compromise your faith in any way by accepting medical treatment.